A Repeated Lesson

I need to get better at this thing. It seems like every time I sit down to write a post, though, my brain turns to mush and Luna comes and plays with that mush and makes it into a house or something. Like that time we had potato salad and she built a tower out of it. Then made it explode.
And that's why we don't really eat real dinners anymore.
But really, there's no excuse for not getting something down. I know I emphasize that lesson a lot but there seriously isn't. I know it's hard. Believe me, I do. Time is fleet of hoof and heavy of weight. And sometimes that pressure itself can just. Squish into not being able to write. When you feel the clock ticking down, you end up spending more time checking the clock than you do actually writing.
It's something you can learn, though. Yes, it's hard. No, it's not fun. But it's beneficial in the long run, because you start to apply that skill, that whole... zoning out, making yourself focus, to other parts of your life. If I couldn't just concentrate on one thing at a time, if I couldn't compartmentalize things the way I do, then I'd just be a gibbering, crying mess in the corner, torn between hysterics and misery.
At the end of the day, the person who can most help ourselves is often us, ourselves. Yes, I know how dumb that sounds. Yes, I know it doesn't apply to when you have a large pointy object stuck in your stomach. Well. No. You can still pull it out yourself, although fixing the hole is harder. So okay. You can't fix holes yourself. Unless you're a unicorn. Or good with stitches.
I'm going to skip the metaphor. Some things you can't fix yourself but you can learn to look at them a different way or to deal with the pain a different way. I'm not saying you can decide to perceive all pain as a learning experience, but you can at least remind yourself that pain kind of is a learning experience a lot of the time. It's stupid and it's sucky but it's also your body and mind saying "look at me, I'm alive, and I'm still attached to this world whether any of you like it or not."
I find thinking of everything as a "screw you" to something else, be it someone else or the cosmos at large, really helps me get through the day. But that's probably just me.
Luna says I'm being cranky and need to... do something. Something I have no idea why she'd think is a good idea. So I'm going to go do that, just because. Because. Maybe it'll ruin someone else's day if I do so.

Positivity!

~Scrivener Blooms